so ya as u can tell if ya know me its been awhile since i updated cuz ya that amazing boy isn't so amazing so ya know we are just friends now. its cool and all i dont think i need or am ready to be in something that consumes so much of my life to where i can't live and be me. i just need time to get to know the real jeanette and experience life for me. i have all the time in the world to settle down and be in a realtionship. so ya know since i have updated i have put my two weeks notice in at belk and i now am applying to be an assistant to a world renound hairstylist at his new salon in tulsa and by the looks of it it seems i will have it soon atleast i pray so i think everyone needs to pray for me. and this past wed. i FINALLY graduated high school yes i dont get my diploma until may but i do not return until then so ya know i'm not in high school anymore.so ya i hope everyone is doing great and bubbles congrats on getting married

                                                                       love ya

                                                                                    jeanette

so i am pretty much the HAPPIEST person in the whole wide world. i seriously have met the PERFECT man for me! i swear he is my match in everyway. he makes me so happy , happier than i have ever been, happier than i EVER was with jay and that says a whole lot. so i just had to update and tell everyone i am the happiest person in the world. even though chris would argue and say he ways but whatever i know the truth

                                   i love ya guys and i hope u can be as happy as me :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!

                   I hope everyone gets blessed this christmas season and that u recieved everything your hearts desired:) i love ya guys o so very much and i just wanted to say thanks bunches and  love ya  u guys mean the world to me. so as far as i am concerned i have had the best christmas eva because i have all of ya guys to call my friends :)

                                                                                       Jeanette

I know people say that everything in ur life happens for a reason but sometimes i wonder y they have to happen at all.  being completely heart broken so hard core when ya know it wasnt supposed to happen its like it wasnt in the pages of your life someone just accidently added it to your lifes rough draft. well thats how i feel right now.  it seems like nothing in my life is going good for me at all . i went out for a job at the lancome counter in my store and i just new it was for me the momoent i heard about it i got an interview and my job was so impresses that they just new i would get it we....... it just so happens that i didnt darcy the lancome ex. was the final desicion maker in the job between me and this other woman and she pick her with no expirence and absoultely no passion for make up she just needed a job.  it breaks my heart to know that i am so passionate about cosmetology and every one in the world knows it bc i shout it from the roof tops everyday, and all of a sudden its gone poof my dream is riped out and stepped on for no apparent reason :( the sadness and tears cant seem to go away from my face no matter how hard i try i'm heart broken.  now since my job really wanted me up there they are trying to make me feel better by givin me a job n fragrences on the weekends (whoopie) it doesn't help at all i'm already crushed.  so i guess i am forevea more stuck in my corner at work. to make matters worse and top it off me and my best friend well i think she is my friend have been fighting and it sucks because i love her so much and it stresses me out hard core plus i like this boy and ya like i said the pages arent in my favor bc i yet again got rejected :( it would not be so bad if i would not of let my self like him but ya stupid lil jeanette just had to wear her heart on her sleeve and get it stepped on by him and my dream job.  i dunno all i know is i wish i could just wake up and it would all be a horrible dream that never existed. but yet again the pages of my life book are not in my favor i guess my book is supposed to be bad well at least thats how i am feeling mabey tomorrows reading in it will have sunshine       :( 

p.s. i do want to kiss you in the rain